The only thing that remains of us of this connection to Her, which can never be changed, is our eternal core essence which She gave to us. It is what is inside of us, and it is our ONLY connection to Her. How do we reach Her inside of us? We have to dig through the layers that have been intentionally built upon Her/us. We have to tunnel through all the dark and ugly parts of ourselves that we have built on top of Her that we think are our true nature but are not. They are the abused and reactive parts of us through which we are operating in this prison.